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The suicide of a person I never met is awfully convenient for me. It's gnawing at me, and I fear it will get worse when I start to deal with it directly.

The suicide of a person I never met is awfully convenient for me. It's gnawing at me, and I fear it will get worse when I start to deal with it directly.

 
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Yeah, its something to witness for sure, trying to stop it and not being able too... It can haunt you.
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get over t! people kill themselves everyday and it never shocks me, it's just more meat to clean up afterwards.
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...another thing....its a felony and you'll be in deep doo-doo afterwards !!
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For some people, it can feel like the only answer.
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OP here, I just don't feal right benifitting from another's missery. I didn't witness or assist in the suicide, I'm just comming out ahead because of it. I feal like a vulture because of it. They don't cause the deaths they feed on either.
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^Keep calm and carion!
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Suicide means they ain't miserable anymore. Benefit away, no one cares.
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If you've never met him, chances are his/her suicide wasn't about YOU. Pick something to feel guilty about that you actually had something to do with. Or you'll go crzay!
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It was about me indirectly, but more about his own bad decisions. I purchased his house at a tax sale. I tried to talk to him, to give him an advanced warning as to what was going to happen before I could serve him, but he never answered the door. I planned to help him the best I could, but feared he'd burn the place down or something before I could even get it insured. I think the last straw for him was when his illegal power got cut. I played an indirect roll in that too. All that anyone seams to say about it to me is "at least he didn't do it in the house".
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At this point only time will help you heal, although I doubt you will ever truly forgive yourself.. Best of LUCK!
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Sounds like you indirectly pulled the trigger, shame on you.
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I'm so confused as to why someone else's suicide would bother you to the level that you would write about it....
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