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I am...suicidal, self-abusive, bisexual, and a budding novelist, did i mention I'll turn 14 soon?

I am...suicidal, self-abusive, bisexual, and a budding novelist, did i mention I'll turn 14 soon?

 
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You are too young for that stuff. You are trying to be something you are not, just to appeal to society? well f*** society. try to relax and just be a kid (which you still are). if i could go back and do it all again, knowing all that i do now, i would do it in a heartbeat, but innocence is bliss. DONT GROW UP TO FAST. PLEASE!!!!
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The budding novelist at 14 is the only one that surprises me. I say focus on that it will help you get past the others.
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You have so much ahead of you. Enjoy every moment that you can and find peace. The other posters are right, too. Best of wishes...
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Sweetie....Ohhh to be 14 once again.Time goes so fast whether you realize it or not.Enjoy your life to its fullest extent and not the way you're describing yourself to us.Become a great novelist,express yourself to the masses.I'll be 65 in 1 month and I'm looking at a lot more of my life.There's still lots to see and do.Please consider my advice.
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Dear 14 year old. Respect yourself. 14 is so f***ing rough and you will see it later. You have so much slamming you at once. Hormones are the number one culprit. Be patient with your impulses and kind to your body. Don't hurt yourself in the process my dear. It's not worth it. Let yourself grow into the person you are destined to be without the scars.
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14 is not too young for these kind of feelings. It is a very rough age to figure out who you are where the hell you're headed in life. So many pressures and responsibilities are starting to hit. True, be patient with yourself and don't hurt yourself, that you will regret later or only cause yourself more heartache.
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When I was 14 I worried about getting drafted out of high school and having my sweet, dear a** shot off. If it's not one thing it's another.
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All teens go through those feelings to a certain degree, embrace the writing, give yourself a break once in awhile and things could just work out.
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you ever need to talk email me @ rolling1large@hotmail.com
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and you are beautiful, unique, and okay. Don't let anyone ever tell you different.
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dude seriously I was like you at 14 I was everything but a budding novelist then I am now 18 almost 19, heres the story I was so suicidal I started to use meth because I did not have the guts to kill myself on purpose. I got with some people way too old for me. I f***ed up everything and hurt everyone. I got pregnant at 16 and I have a 2 yr old son I got clean as soon as I found out I was prego and I am still clean but I am also still cleaning up the wrekage from my stupidity as a young teen. life isnt that bad shit I was raped and molested and beat when I was young but I dont complain because it gets better when you are old enough to make your own life. wake up dont thrash your life.
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Reality hurts. You just gotta find the right people to be supportive of you all the way. Suicide is not the solution, that is like you are giving up. Fight it and grow stronger.
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.....and you think your the only 13 year old that says these things about themselves, your not as special as you think you are.
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We are all bisexual to some degree. Teenage years are tough - concentrate on your writing and enjoy life.
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Next year you'll be something else
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Enjoy your life it take time to figure things out give it time your still young
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thats where I was at 14. just tread the water and dont make any mistakes to make it worse, Iv made it to 22 and Im fairly happy.
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That's a shame. You know what you sound like? Every other 14 year old kid on the planet. Seriously, kid. Once you get to your 20's, you'll realize that 14 is just a melodramatic age. When you're 30, you'll realize that you were an idiot when you were 20. I wonder what I'll think when I turn 40...
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Walk in the rain sometime. Even better, run in the rain sometime. The endorphins from exercise will not compare to those that you get from self abuse - but are a nice sub. Not to mention the thinking time during running - for you novel and such. Bisexual thing.. sucks face. I'm facing that same issue now and I'm 21... I don't see it getting easier. I hope you don't take that step into suicide. Maybe I'm just crazy (very, very possible :] ) but it seems to me as though you're going to be a big help to people who are in need - in the future. Being able to draw from past life expiriences and such... just sayin'
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idiot.
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wow. what a true wonderkins. I'm sure the world will want to hear your story. Write it after you're gone.
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Your my girls age. Slow down and relax. Your trying to "label" yourself at such a young age. Trust me, in a few years, you will evolve into something different, change is constant and definate.
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i was as screwed up as you, if not more (don't want to mention why), but i re-invented myself, and so can you. your world is small now; it can big as big as you want later.
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okayfirst of all im fourteen also and basically ive felt the same as everything you put(except the novelist shit!)anyways your not the only one that feels that waycuase i dont know who iamyet and i dont think you have found yourself either!
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I have two things to say: One, I'm you. Two, I'm 44. :)
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take it one day at a time. you'll get to 30 soon. thats where the REAL drama begins. BUT ITS ALL WORTH IT! ENJOY LIFE, you really only get one. no sense in hurting yourself there are several others who are waiting to hurt you for u! Chin up young girl! life is good, you'll see.
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hey most people dont know who they are until they're 40 something. I know im still searching at 28!
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I'm 14 too. Don't let life screw you over. If writing is what you love, then let that take you out of the world when you feel down.
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^What a brilliant answer! I am 31 and hide in novels and my own writing!
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I identify - I felt a lot of that in my teens and into my twenties. It's part of growing and learning who you are.
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