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When I was 18 my boyfriend told me he'd kill himself if I didn't have sex with him. I didn't, and he raped me and then overdosed. No one knows it was my fault.

When I was 18 my boyfriend told me he'd kill himself if I didn't have sex with him. I didn't, and he raped me and then overdosed. No one knows it was my fault.

 
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and it still iSNT your fault. people make their own choices and cant base their choice on something that someone else believes or does.
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yeah. let go. Don't let someone else's choice eat away at you.
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NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL!!! The "all caps" are on purpose. He was being manipulative. I have a family member like that so I know exactly what this loser is all about.
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how can you possibly blame yourself for him being a chicken shit rapist? just be thankful that he isn't able to hurt any more girls that way...
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wait, he had sex with you (through rape) and killed himself anyway? no, not your fault. I'm sorry this had to happen to you and that you feel the way you do...
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Don't make this feel like your problem, I'm sure the rape was bad enough, just remember every day above ground is a good day.
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it's not your fault, he was suicidal or just careless...let go of that guilt, it doesn't belong to you.
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Oh sweety this is something you need to try and let go. It is not your fault at all. He was probably bipolar and was going to kill himself no matter if you had given yourself voluntarily or not! You are beautiful no matter what and do not let this eat away at you. It is not your fault he was hard wired the wrong way.
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Its not your fault. Perhaps you shouldnt keep it a secret, you should find someone to talk to. So you can move on
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The un-repentant manipulator raped you and killed himself, He will no longer rape others. Now, You young lady need to refuse to believe that it was your fault, as it was not. He had ZERO respect for you, the proof is evident. HE raped you!!!!! Then he did the only thing left for a coward to do and that was to kill himself in an attempt for the final control. Do NOT allow this manipulation to continue, seek help from a Christian counselor, they will be happy to work with you through this barbaric tactic. May God free you from this burden that is not yours to carry.
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dont blame your self for that guys stupidity
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Not Your Fault! If he raped you, he deserved to die. The overdose was an easy way out for him. You still have to live with what he did. He should be burning in hell for what he did to you. I hope I am not unclear on this. I just wish I had the words to help you heal and move on with your life, without the burden he has put on you. You must find a way to do this.
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Was his name Darwin?
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Honey, he tried to emotionally blackmail you into doing something you didn't want -- and then used violence to take it from you. Please, find someone to help you get past this. It WASN'T and IS NOT your fault.
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Anyone who is a rapist and suicidal has bigger problems than most psychiatrists can fix, much less an 18 year old.
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Anyone who is a rapist and suicidal has bigger problems than most psychiatrists can fix, much less an 18 year old. It isn't even remotely your fault.
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how do you think that was your fault? He was the one who was f***ed up.
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NOT YOUR FAULT! And you should have killed him anyway for raping you.
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doesn't it feel beeter to get his death of your chest?
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NOT YOUR FAULT!!!
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Not your fault. Consider some therapy to help you come to terms with this. I'd suggest PROFESSIONAL secular therapy however, christian therapy will be too biased.
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It was not your fault, he was a selfish pig who raped you.
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you never had to have sex with hiom in the FIRST place you know what im saying, thats not even mentioning the rape the overdose his choice and it probably had absolutely nothing to do with you suicide is so personal and in like your own head, horrible thoughts consume, regardless all that not at all because of you....forgive for yourself and move onto love and living life xo
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A person who rapes his girlfriend should commit suicide. Good riddance to his sorry ass.
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I agree with the last poster. What a waste of space. Don't you dare blame yourself, hun! He was a piece of shit coward & deserved what he got!
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It was not your fault...why do we women take responsiblity for men raping us. No is no
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Not Your Fault! Not Your Fault! He obviously had other issues, how could sex have changed that? It was probably the best thing that couldv'e happened in your life short of never meeting him. You could have a baby with someone that has severe mental problems, or, even worse, have to raise a child that has the same issues. Live your life as though everything happens for a reason! At least he experienced what he thought was love, every life no matter how short deserves love. It's not so tragic.
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You were his excuse. Yes, he had some serious problems, but after rape? no, i couldnt care less if a man like that is off this planet. NOT YOUR FAULT!!
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maybe she was the one who drugged him? is that what she means by it was her fault? i don't know.
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Get over that thought. It wasn't your fault.
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Hell, he got the sex, so what was the problem. Fuck him. He would've killed himself anyway. Coward.
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It was HIS fault, not yours. Sounds like he was a worthless jerk you are much better off without. Move on.
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How in hell was this "your fault?" Your BF not only raped you and excaped prosecution, he chose to use illegal drugs, and to OD on them! You are the victim - abandon your guilt and go on living!
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"YOUR FAULT?!" Hello? A man rapes you, kills himself with an illegal drug, and it's "your fault?" Honey, wake up and do some living!(M 65, two daughters)
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