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I always laugh and smile in front of my friends and family but I haven’t felt any real emotions for the last 5 years. I just feel completely hollow inside.

I always laugh and smile in front of my friends and family but I haven’t felt any real emotions for the last 5 years. I just feel completely hollow inside.

 
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I've always been the same way. I remember the day I learned the definition of sociopath- my mom and I were talking about a book. I immediately felt that it was potentially defining me. I told mom this, and she said that I was too happy a person, and get too depressed to classify. My depression always just feels like an emptiness. I do not connect with people. I found solace in art and working with animals- and began to actually smile, and really laugh. Then fell in love, and was heartbroken, and I feel hollow again. No advice or anything here, just made me reflect on myself
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Saw this and thought..omg that's me! Not depressed or anything, seems like just going thru the motions on the outside. Does feel like i'm "running on empty" on the inside tho.
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This secret struck a chord with me. Description fits me to a "t"
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fill that emptyness inside by leading a hedonistic lifestyle.
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I agree with poster 4. Eat, drink and be Mary.
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I posted a secret that said I'm waiting for my real life to begin...because I feel so empty inside.
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stick a thumb up yet a** - you'll feel something!
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My wife was going to leave me and I had to fake cry to keep her from leaving. Once she decided to stay it was back to normal.. Normal for me being numb and hallow. I have to fake laugh fake cry.. I feel nothing and hate it.. It keeps me from developing any true relationship.
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Ypu need to fall in love
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i cant fall in love
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hmm, I'm on the opposite side of this fence. I feel bad for you but being totally emotional barely allows me to function. Yesterday my wife was ragging on Bush and asked if he EVER did anything right. I actually had to appear that i was thinking it over because I had this huge lump in my throat and couldn't speake without breaking up. Just because that a****** kept us from being attacked again and didn't let the country run out of gas. i kind of envy you guys.
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I too, am emotionally bankrupt, I think I'll try some psychedelic drugs to pull myself out of it.
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This must be awful for you. Did you always feel this way, or only after some specific event? No one can guarantee a cure, but if you can afford it, perhaps a therapist might be able to help or at least offer some comfort.
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this picture reminds me of the time my car wouldn't start because it was so cold and I only had a quarter tank of fuel.
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I feel the same way. The people around me think I am happy go lucky but actually i am very empty. The only true happiness and feelings I have are for my dog. She gives me unconditional love and expects nothing from me. It's sad but I love her more than any human.
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I'm the same way, it's like I have 2 options feel horribly depressed or feel nothing at all, I'm a f***ing loser, I might as well be crazy too.
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I live with nightmarish depression and loneliness. I am simply waiting to die (probably several decades off). Your post makes me wonder if feeling this way would be better. I'm not saying it is, I just wonder.
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