Places for help:
If you cant go on:  http://suicidehotlines.com/
        
I want to end my life every day. I don't want my boys growing up wondering why there mommy cries all the time. I came very close once before.

I want to end my life every day. I don't want my boys growing up wondering why there mommy cries all the time. I came very close once before.

 
Rating:   8 Ups   20 Downs  
  Rate it:  
970 Views
9 Comments
    
Favorite

Category: Secrets

 
You think it would be better for them growing up thinking their mommy hated them so much and didn't want them enough, so she killed herself. Can you see how twisted your thinking is? There are treatments for depression and what you are feeling, get help before you ruin these beautiful, INNOCENT, children. You have no right to bring then into the world then run out on them. It's selfish and wrong!!!!
Remove this stupid comment

^Think the father wrote. Please get help, chemical imbalances can be treated. Over 2yrs my 6yr old still misses her dad and the worse part was when he died all the people who said he was in heaven. She said she wanted to be with him. This has made her grow up too fast and yet not fully comprehend. The thing that really gets to me is when she says "we need a new dad".
Remove this stupid comment

Hon, I know how you feel and I had a parent that killed themself and it was hard. Maybe you do need to get some psychological help and maybe you just need to realize some things about yourself. I am wondering why you cry every day... do you have people in your life who love you nad support you? Maybe you are an empath and you are more sensitive than others. If you are like me, you feel everything and that can be very hard. It's hard to say how to help you without knowing more but in the end, your kids need you and love and want you. Your emotional life might be very valuable to them some day so don't be so hard on yourself. Crying is not a crime. Feeling is not a crime. Look up the term "empath" and also look up "postpardum depression". Maybe there will be something there that will help you. Love and blessings to you and your boys.
Remove this stupid comment

Tell yourself that the option to check out is Closed. Period. Then get yourself some help, either counselling, meds or both. I suffered from depresssion for years, and Finally found some peace with anti-depressents. You don't have to live this way -You Can be happy (or at least not on the verge of suicide). Even if you can't think of another single reason to live, let their future mental health be that reason. YOU CAN DO IT!!! Good luck!!!! :)
Remove this stupid comment

i also had a parent that killed himself and it has tortured me for years. no joke. don't do it, just get some help for yourself, please. they need you.
Remove this stupid comment

My brother left three young boys. It is the worst thing that can happen to a child. Please don't do it because they would never understand. They need you and they need you to show them an example of how to be strong... And have hope even when you feel hopeless. I've been there too, and you must believe that things WILL get better. The catch is that you have to BE HERE so that they can. If you are gone, your children will emotionally die with you.
Remove this stupid comment

dont be a selfish douchebag
Remove this stupid comment

i am the OP. thank you for all of your opinions. For those of you who are against me. You don't know my situation or what I'm going through. I have an appointment to see my doctor and get on anti depressants. I'm on my way to getting better.
Remove this stupid comment

Add a Comment