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I will stop destroying my life, health, and relationships as soon as i remove the part of me that finds decadent love and indulgence so appealing.

I will stop destroying my life, health, and relationships as soon as i remove the part of me that finds decadent love and indulgence so appealing.

 
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I have one word to describe you: PATHETIC!!!!!
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I have one wor to describe you: human!!!!dont listen to the haters.
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Huh? At least you sound as though you live life to the fullest... just try your absolute best not to hurt others.
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i also have one word to describe you: romantic... and by the looks of it...handsome as well.
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que?
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what is decadent Love?? You sound queer
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(op) decadent love.. in this context means a decline or decaying. basically, a love that is is so wrong for me on realistic plane,yet it feels so natural. i like all things dark.... i am attracted to women that i cant take home to mom(basically! The definition of queer is strange... If you know that.... then yes... I am queer! I f*** only women. I am secure enough in my sexuality to definitly make this statment. Thanks for the feedback. secrets are not so secret anyway..... I am able to see the darker parts of people without reading this site, but i like the fact that people get so emotional over reading other peoples' skeletons. I love the dark dark secrets that make up ... well.... human!!! f*** off!
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you're cute... if this is really you?
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If you really like bad girls, then you and i should hook up sometime! <3
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4^ If the OP is gay, what f***ing difference does it make?!?
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(OP) WHy would I hurt others. I end up with connecting with people that ARE already hurting.. How else do you think we get along? I am old enough AND sweet enough to know when someone's feelings or life is being trampled on by my gravitation towards a strange and almost eccentric human mind. The feeling is powerful, but my longing to protect others is also my own personal values is priority. I just think this is my secret, but if i met you in real life.. I would tell you this. I suppose it is not a "secret" on a comparable scale to the tripe that I read here.(LOL) I hardly doubt If anything my secret is ordinary :D
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It's who you are...your Mom knows who you are...she is expecting you to bring home the "girl you can't bring home"....your Mom just wants you to be happy. Find what you want, be happy and bring it home to Mom.
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^(OP) i was using that "take home to your mother" as an example. clearly she wants all her children to be happy. The person I want loves someone else. I tried to interfere, but it just made me look like an idiot, and I really just want her to be happy. I'll find someone new, but I am sure the new woman will come with a lot secrets of her own. They always do, no?I am a happy person on the outside, but deep within; I am not so sure what happiness really is. another passing day is a day that I can never have again, so i try to live it to the fullest. The only thing I am searching for is the ability to love without having the expectation that i will recieve it. I have expectations in people that just can not be, so I end up alone, or settling. hense, this secret exists. have a good weekend folks!
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I hear you man. Moth to a flame.We self- destruct to feel the emotions.
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Cease the worshiping of satan.
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lmfao
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Happiness is a taught lesson, just like pain, I sometimes wonder what exactlty that feels like, happiness that is. I contemplate that maybe thats the way I'm feeling now but I'm just too stupid to realize it lol
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I'll ask for forgiveness when I'm done sinning.
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"I'll repent when I'm done sinning," my friend said.
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