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i could go away and hang out with an attainable man, however, i won't, i am secretly yours, your worth it, you make me feel safe. thank you a million times. ILU

i could go away and hang out with an attainable man, however, i won't, i am secretly yours, your worth it, you make me feel safe. thank you a million times. ILU

 
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Next round is on me...drink up!
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Attainable? Is mister worth-a-million married? Secretly his? Like the crap he flushes behind the closed door of the loo, maybe. He's privately proud of that too.
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^that is funny, maybe your right, maybe your wrong. bet you haven't got laid in awhile?
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Yea vodka makes me feel safe too
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It's not whether he is worth it my dear, it's really whether you are worth a full time partner or not, what do you think? Do you deserve to be happy?
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It's all fun and games until the holidays are here, and he is with his family, not you.
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i've been there!!! holidays you put on a smile for the family and act as if your life is wonderful and from everyones view it is! after the holidays everything goes back to norm, you don't talk,you don't sleep in the same universe, the only thing thats united is the clothes sharing the closet and both miserable, but yet you go on like this for years, you get comfortable and know what to exspect and you forget how miserable you realy are. then one day you wake up and just walk away feeling nothing, not even pain. it's noones fault realy, you started as friends and took it to another level without understanding, the love was there and true from both ends but not the kind for marriage,for life just simply friends. only now the friendship is destroyed, both exspecting more then the other could give! whats happening here has been done befor just maybe a centry ago! mine wasen't the first and this story won't be the last! this mistake is common! when getting married you just don't know. noone can explain it, not realy.it's just something you learn from exsperiance. thats if you can humbly accept your part and admitt you went someplace you shouldn't have. i wish the best for all involved....
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^thank you, it is going to hurt, it does already.
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i've been on both ends of this and 2^ yea it gets to the point you hurt for so long that you become numb to the pain which leaves you feeling nothing at all! and for the other side, it wasen't planned, it wasen't soppose to be anything more then platonic. i'm not even sure how it happened it just did (not my style, it never happened befor and will never happen again) this person was my bestfriend,i didn't know i had fallen in love till i was in over my head.even though there is no contact between us any more the space and time hasen't changed my love,it still grows. my heart still hurts, it doesn't get easier with time but instead the opposite. i've never loved as i did like this befor and suspect i'll never love like that again.the love would have to be more devine,the passion more intense, the friendship more intimate. being torn between my heart and my head was/is sufficating and tormenting thats made me want more then once just to be dead.
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wow, geez i feel better now, like trying to quit smoking and hearing an exsmoker tell you there isn't a day that goes by they don't crave a cigarette.:( i love him so much.
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honey how old r u?
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too old, however, i am the kind of person that will take any love that comes my way. you only live once and i nevered believed in marriage, it's false too.
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^it's only false when you settle for less then your dream! ^5 this is ^6, it only hurts cause it feels as if your dream is dying and being with the wrong one no matter how much you love them, will kill your dream! letting go of the wrong one will set you free of hurt and set your dream free to spread it's wings and fly higher and stronger then befor. my prayers are with you, god bless
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2^ you should take some you time to heal befor you get involved again with anyone. you should never settle for what ever! what do you want in a relationship?? in a man/woman???? figure that out then wait for it to come along, be paitent and know yourself, you are complete already!!! and most of all LOVE YOURSELF 1st! above all and NEVER SACERFICE WHO YOU ARE FOR ANYONE ELSE!!THERE IS SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE YOU FOR YOU, ALL OF YOU, JUST AS YOU ARE, GOOD BAD, ALL OF YOU!!
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^Great comment!
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^2 i want this man forever, thats what i want. someone that stands by me, makes love to me, listens to me, and oh yeah, gives me the goosebumps...not to mention, feeds me. lol
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does he realy want all of you forever??? the fact that he's between both of you speaks volumes that neither of you are the one!!!!!!!!
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^no he can't, and i have no right to wish for it. yes i have to humbly accept i went somewhere i knew i shouldn't. i believe we can be friends forever though.
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^ friends froever??? yea like that exsist! not when it's one sided!!it takes two to make that happen
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^now what did i do?
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Just move on. What a loser!
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^^ MUST IT ALWAYS BE ABOUT YOU!!??
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^if is always about me than why am i here trying to reach out to convince YOU that i love YOU....sounds like i should move on,
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^if you were reaching out for me it would be in person!!!!!!
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^really? let me? ask me, so i can tell you...xo
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^ you know where and how to reach me if thats what you realy wanted!!!!!!! no need for me to ask!!!!!!!!!!
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^whoever this is, why do you need to be so mad!!!!!!! i am loving....
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^ by whos standards????? yours or GODS???????
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^i had enough,you just turned a very nice post into a negative, why? you must want me to back off, so be it.
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^ guess that answers that ? loud and clear!!!!
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^for real?
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^^i need to know why i anger you?
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i'm not angry and never was! if by chance you are who i think you might be, this has been a one sided friendship and clearly you made promises that were unrealistic, ones that you could never keep and should have known that when you made em, just wish you'd stop playing these internet games and fess up ( everything!!!, i know waaaaay moorrre then you think!) in person! my responce my just surprise you!! but you run and hide avoiding everything as a child! OR is it that you were faking from the beginning for your own personal gain and i never realy ment a thing?????
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^give me a hint if this is you? are you single/attached? i never made promises, you wouldn't accept that. whatever you know, name something, i have reasons for doing the things i do, i can tell you everything. if this is you, you did drop some hints on the phone last night. is it you? i am afraid to fess up cause you will think i'm crazy, in fact i don't deny browsing, i even admitted that i was addicted.
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^^furthermore, i would never try to fake you, i am just trying to express my true feelings to you because i can't out loud. if it was possible i want you in my life forever, Sundays at the least?
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what kind of hair do i have? if this is you than let's go have coffee and put it on the table, i don't ever want to lose you, yes i did some wrong things, i am just trying to watch out for myself,if you want to take a break i guess i will have to face it, but i don't want that, i can be honest about anything with you, give me a chance to explain.
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wrong person, we didn't talk on the phone last nite and sundays well we haven't spent any together.
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amen, so are you the person that has been posting to this posting all along? i am so happy it's not him. :)
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honey if your on here instead of talking in person you realy have no reason to be happy. wake up n smell the coffee!
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it's safe
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safe from what??
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oh wow at the conversations between strangers saying things too each other that they couldn't say in real life. I sorely do miss my sweet tater. She gave me that safe feeling too. Now...once upon a time,
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there is something seriously wrong when you rather say it here then face to face!!!! damn people even if the one you love doesn't love you at least you'll have an answer but living as a coward rather then facing your fears you could be passing up a love of a life time!!!!
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^Do you practice what you preach?
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^2 i know what i'm doing, it's a sensitive thing, i know i can't tell him in person, this is the safe way. he is my love of a life time however we missed connections, ps i am the author
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^2 yes i do!! as best as i can considering i haven't had any time with the one i'd like to reveal my heart to and thats NOT MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!! i've been real blunt that even a fool would understand!!!!!!!! i could sure use some closure even if he tells me it's all in my head, he's not in it with me and i'm just crazy!!!!!!!! i don't know what he's afraid of i can't feel any more like a fool then i already do!!!!!!! and crazy cause i know his hearts in it as deep as mine at least it use to be!!!!!
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Fools receive the Universe's blessings, and they understand lots more than they get credited for...most of the time.
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TRUE^
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