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I hated my abusive mother so much that when she died and I got her ashes I smashed and scattered her remains at a garbage depot.
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<br/>I hate her more now.

I hated my abusive mother so much that when she died and I got her ashes I smashed and scattered her remains at a garbage depot.

I hate her more now.

 
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As a mother I wonder what did she do to 'deserve' that. As a another human being, I'm sorry for your pain.
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LOVE the picture....and the quote
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I plan to do the same thing with my husband's ashes. I understand your actions, but you have to let the anger go, it will consume you and cause you to do the very things to others that your mom did to you. like in the comment before mine, you are letting her 'win' by giving her that power over your life. ((((you))) that hug is for you.
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Im having difficulty typing this becuz of the tears. I want to thank U all from my heart for the positive comments. U are right about finding closure inside of me. I hope Im not too late.
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Your Mom was human. We are SO imperfect. Everyone errs. We all need forgiveness. I hope you can find a way to forgive, forget, and move on, to a more loving and creative life.
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"This is love, not that we loved Him, but that He first loved us, and gave up His son as a sacrifice for our sins." God really does love us. Jesus cares. If you honestly ask Him for help, He will work the miracle of forgiveness that you need.
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Thank you for not littering.
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funny i feel this way too. and I can't wait until she is dead. thank you that is all.
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I made a vow when 11 that I would dance on my mother's grave - at least I can still walk :-)
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Forgive,or you will eat your soul with hate and shame for feeling this way. You can't change the past nor can she if she would. You have to forgive and move on in your life.
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I understand you so much. I had an abusive mother and father that traded me and my brother for drugs so they could get high.. And the people that got us made us do sick things with each other.. It took me many years to forgive them both (they both past away) and move on in life. At one point in my parenthood I was abusive by hitting my kids, but they never had to deal with the PAIN I have encountered.. Just forgive her and move on. She was sick and needed help and possibly would not ask for it. It is ok to cry, scream, yell, holler in your own house or go to the mountains, beach and just let it go. Tell her what she did. I wrote all mine down and I have two books now, and publishing will be soon. Pain hurts but you can tell others of it and help someone else whether younger or older. I hope you get better. Each Christmas Holiday is hard but, my children enjoy themselves so muc . Don't lose yourself and who GOD made you to be..
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You need counceling to cope with the abuse you suffered.
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when my mom dies can i send hers to you too?
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no you don't hate her more now - you hate yourself. You need to forgive so she doesn't hold that power over you anymore.
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The hatred I felt for my mother became my consicous. I was a better person for I never wanted to be like her.
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you dont feel bad about that? i feel sorry for you people.
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My mother had 10 children. We were dirt poor. My mother's only sister had just one child. My aunt had a nice home. My uncle started to drink and would often leave with his paycheck and return in several days broke.At the age of six I was to entice my uncle into having another drink then another in order to get him drunk MY MOTHER SUGGESTED THIS and my aunt would then take his check to pay the bills. The GAME which was played on several occassions became more intense and didn't end until my drunken uncle had done his worst. My mother and my aunt hid me in a vacant house for weeks telling family that I had went to church camp. When I did recover enough to come back home my still visible bruises were explained as a camp accident. My older brothers would have KILLED uncle. No one ever knew.
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YOU ARE NOT ALONE MY MOM IS A RAGING ALCHOLIC AND BLAMES ME FOR SHIT I DID NOT EVEN DO I HATE HER SHE WAS ABUSIVE AND A b**** I WISH I WAS ADOPTED. BUT I AM MARRIED NOW. AND I HAVENT TALKED TO HER IN YEARS NOW.
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I feel a lot of anger toward women, and I know that's because of the things my mom said and did when I was growing up. I do miss her sometimes but she did me a lot of harm.
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My my mother always wanted a daughter, and she was really angry that her first child was a boy. It was a hard childhood. I did not have any relationships with women worthy of the name till after my mother died. I have tried to forgive but it's hard.
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