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I was molested as a child.  Several family members had their way with me.  Now as an adult, when I go to the bathroom, I feel so dirty. WHY?

I was molested as a child. Several family members had their way with me. Now as an adult, when I go to the bathroom, I feel so dirty. WHY?

 
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I'd beat the living shit out of them if possible, sorry to that happened to you though. I really feel sorry bout it.
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because it's a learned response to the stress of the abuse....not your fault!
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define several
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could be that when you were a child be molested you started to wet yourself as a defense mechanism, so now when you "go" it's a relation.
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^ YOU aren't dirty. It was something that happened but it doesn't define who you are. You can heal from this.
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Define Several: My father, my brothers, my fathers friends (He allowed it to happen to my sister and I)...
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Because you din't kill them yet.
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Please do not blame yourself.Get counseling.
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Because you led them on (Uncle Fester)
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You are not that dirty.
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Fake post
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Fake post? Seriously? LMAO. I wish it was fake. I wish it hadn't happened. Are you so blind that you don't see what is right in front of you? Fake post. Go through life with your blinders on Fake Post. Make sure to never look around the corner....
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Hey, Fake Post. Go read these books. "A Child Called It", "The Lost Boy", "A Man Named Dave" Come back to me and tell me that you have removed your blinders. I was lucky... I am still alive. Some kids out there are not so lucky...
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id beat the shit out of them too for ya;) love to.
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Hey "fake post" go screw yourself. Just because your life was full of love and candy doesn't mean everyone had that life. It's real and it happens every day. Some kids get out some kids don't. Some people move on some people relive the nightmare daily. I pray for you, I pray that you can continue to live your life of love and candy and never have to deal with the dark side of life. Obviously based on your post you couldn't handle it. To the poster, I can only imagine your pain of reliving this incident. I hope one day you can move past this. YOU are worth it. Tell yourself everyday today will be better than yesterday. After that it is up to you to make the change. Good luck!
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Please tell me you don't have to deal with these family members any more..out of anger any man would wish to run to you defense and fight and kill these men...I hope you're just no where near them and try to cope and live a happy life with a spouse who shal take care of and be there for you..
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OP here: I am. Thank you. My husband is wonderful. I have received counseling to those who wonder. Counseling - in most cases like mine does not fix it, it helps but it is not fixed. I have had 3 wonderful children. I BROKE the chain. I never touched my babies and I would have killed anyone who would have. My baby is 22 now.. this was many years ago. Yet I still have the problem and no answers...
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OP HERE: I have not talked to my brothers since my mother passed away over 5 years ago. My father died in an industrial accident over 24 years ago. I still deal with one of my molesters. He apologized to me. I accepted and moved on..
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OP HERE: I wish this were a fake post. I would give anything to make this NOT real for me or anyone else out there that this has happened to.
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OP HERE: As for others who would want to "Beat" them for what they did.. that is really umm.. sweet but it didn't/does not help. Thank you though!! :) As for my "Potty" issue.. It does not happen all the time. Only some of the time. And only when I pee. I don't know why. I wish it would stop. I move on and then that happens and I get scared all over again. Even at the age of 41...
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because the bathroom/shower is where you were raped?
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OP HERE: No. I am sorry, that isn't the case. My therapist said that too but I was never touched there in that room... As a matter of fact, that is where I could (and still do) take hot showers.. so hot that my skin turns bright red. It is how I clean myself. the only way I feel clean....
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