After my dad got custody of my younger sister i didnt hear from him for 5 years now everytime i look at him i feel like he never wanted me

You need to tell me the truth...

We talk about how great it would be if we could get married but secretely I'm glad we cant. This way I know we stay together only because we love each other

my b/f has a very small penis!!

I wish you cared to at least ask how I've been. Maybe I don't deserve it but.....maybe I do.