So much is expected of me, I can't do it. It's like i can't live up to myself. Is that wrong or just me?

I miss my husband...

Yes, I did sleep with someone else while you were in prison for 3 years.. I told u that I wouldn't do anything that you wouldn't do.

my depression is starting to scare me

I date guys that consider me out of their league because all they ever wanted was someone like me & I great treated very well. I treat them like kings in return