I'm not sure of my own existence, so how can I possibly believe in God's?

I broke into the sacristy of my the school church in high school and got drunk on holy wine.

I sent you a message one day saying i lost your baby. The truth is i had an abortion. I didn't want you or your baby in my life. you didnt believe me anyways.

If only I could see you again Jenny D. I fell in love with you that night.I am sorry, I lost your number and never called. Your face and name haunt me daily.

When i praise others constantly, I feel loved by all . ..vs, When i am by myself, i feel defeated, and alone