I suffer from avoidant and paranoid personality disorders. I dont have insurance and no idea how to get help it is ruining my life I cant trust or connect w/any

I am so profoundly lonely. The one and only friend I have lives over 9000 miles away.

Why is it that after 10 years, I still can't stop thinking about you!? You broke my heart and I still dream of getting back with you...even if it is just 4 sex.

Out of curiosity I stopped being the one to call my friends,my phone hasn't rang in four months

It's the intimacy I love, not the men. Passionate and lust are my biggest highs.