y cant my parents aprriacate the things i do right rather then ignore them and see the things i do wrong that i already hate my self for it kills me

I am consumed by regret. My past haunts me. I want to go back in time and change things.

All these years. It wasn't even me. He's "Malignant Narcissist". I loved/married a man that never even existed. There is no hope? I'm not accepting this well.

I opened up to my therapist about my life today. It made her cry. I never realized it was all so bad until now. I can't decide how to feel, most I just feel sad