I contemplate suicide so much that it feels unnatural to think about death. Im also not emo or gothic but just hate the idea that in the end theres no point.

FWB is not my thing. It has been years since I had a LTR and miss being woken by my love giving me oral pleasure.

The way things are going this late in my life, I've come to realize sleep is the only freedom I know.

I let women disgrace me in bed because I don't think I'm good enough for them

I lost my beautiful boy 2 days before xmas. He loved to run fast and when we took him up to a state park scenic overlook he ran straight off a 200' cliff.