I love you with all of my heart. But cant go through the misery of you breaking it again.

I've constantly fantasized about running into my boyfriend who killed himself 15 years ago, as if his suicide was only a rumour.

i love having sex, but can't finish.

When i'm driving I often think about driving into a tree or into a semi truck so i can die and hope people miss me when i'm gone

I keep a loaded gun in my nightstand since I caught her cheating in our home. Just in case I can't make it through the night