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Outside I'm a normal happy husband and father but inside I wish I could rewind 15 years and take a do over.  I've woke up two days in a row thinking about her.

Outside I'm a normal happy husband and father but inside I wish I could rewind 15 years and take a do over. I've woke up two days in a row thinking about her.

 
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well tough sHiT buddy.....get over it already!
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You and 100 million others.
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^ I don't think that many are thinking about me
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That life is OVER. You can't go back, all you can do is move forward.
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That is because you expect others to fill in the holes of your inadequacy. You are a selfish, self absorbed human being. No doubt your wife and kids are affected by your complete selfishness and dishonesty with yourself and with them. Do the work on yourself that needs to be done and fullfill for your wife and your kids what you signed up for and stop whinning about the fact that things aren't the way you have pictured them in your mind to be.
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grow up.
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i say do it, you only live once.
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its called a midlife crisis
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What was sooo terrific then, may not be all good today. You are rethinking wonderful memories. It's normal. People grow and change, and today you may not even like her? Direct all that energy toward your family . . . you will live happily ever after.
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Excellent advice !! TAKE IT !!
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the grass is always greener...
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beat off then kill yourself.
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the grass is NEVER greener! be thankful gor what you have
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It's easy to wonder how life could be different with someone else when you've been in your life so long, trust me that it will always turn out the same. People always irritate you no matter how hot they are. The chemicals in the beggining of a relationship wear off and whats left is what matters. And I say 15 years doing wehat your doing is a good run. That's an accomplishment be proud of that and move forward. Good Luck, be strong.
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If you are happy you would not have these thoughts.
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It's the weather
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OP here.... thanks for the "advice" about growing up, now do me a favor and kiss the fattest part of my ass. If I wanted advice from a bunch of trolls I'd go to craigslist and look for the homegrown retards there. Advice to any women reading this; get off your ass, lose 20 pounds, keep your man satisfied and show him you love him. Or have a husband like me who gets tired of your bullshit and thinks about 15 years ago and the one who got away.
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^you made your own destiny buddy, no one to get angry at but yourself! how about you grow a set of balls, get a divorce and free yourself from a loveless marriage? oh yeah, cause it's easier to sit on the computer and daydream about fuzzy memories that are probably not even that great to begin with, but your life is just that crappy by comparison....and if that's the way you speak to your wife then you you reap what you sow!
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i'm not a troll, and tried honestly to give you some helping suggestions. by the way, i am a woman! with the attitude you showed in your last post - do your wife and children a big favor - leave them and go find your fantasy of fifteen years ago. good luck to the wife and children.
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I'm in the same boat as you.I've been married for 18 years. We're just different people than we were back then. But I've got 2 wonderful boys so I endure it for them. I'm in love with a women 17 years younger, she feels the same but there's nothing I can do. I won't hurt my children for my own satisfaction.
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^ Thank you, someone gets it. I'm not an ass and my wife and kids are the most important thing in the world to me. They're spoiled and want for nothing, I work my ass off to give them the best of everything and would never ever ever hurt my kids. I know some people have the mentality that their spouses are fashion accessories and their kids are burdens so what's the harm in walking out and finding something new, but I would never do that. I'll just suck it up, bury it deep down inside and truck forward like nothing is bothering me and I'm the happiest person in the world. I can't go back, I accept my decisions and responsibilities, but still have that small voice that says "what if?"....
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Dude, I cannot blame you. The human fabric is so twisted anymore, it is useless to try to weave something constructive in a deeply meaningful way. So, why try to bust your ass for something that really has no value. I say you only live once in this f***ed up world. Go have an extra-marital affair. Then you will discover if this is just an obcession of yours or whether something much deeper psychologically is going on inside you. Good luck
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Take a college level human development class. You'll see that men and women really aren't even compatable, for the most part. That explains your problem
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go suck a dick and see if you should have been gay
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^ the what if is just that what if, and whatever pops in your mind is make believe. IDK what you think would be sooo different with this other woman? Stay with her for 15 yrs and you will feel the same as you do with your wife. So I say, instead of day dreaming about shit your obviously never going to do(your words, cuz you said you'd never leave them etc..) why not put some f***ing energy into your marriage and communicaqte with your wife what is missing. Thats she needs to get off her lazy ass and lose 20lbs and then proceed to tell her what a f***ing dick you've been and what you will be willing to change. Sorry buddy but if your needs aren't being met I can gurantee you that her needs haven't been met.
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^ i agree, and if in the end you find you really don't want to be with her, then don't, you don't have to leave the kids by leaving her, and if you don't really want to be with her, you're doing the kids more harm than good.
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Op, you don't see your wife as a fasion accessory but you want her to get off her fat ass and please her man? You're full of shit. You are nothing but a selfish self absorbed bastard who needs his ego stroked about as often as he needs his dick stroked. Ever think the reason she has given up is because she knows that you aren't there mentally and emotionally? Because you are still a little boy and not a man?
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^You and the rest of the trolltards here who have to spam a legitimate post can line up and take turns on these nuts. The day I give a shit about your opinion is never. F O
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^truth hurts huh? better call the waaaaaambulance!
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