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My brother died 4yrs ago. His ashes were scattered in SF Bay. Every year on the anniversary of his death I dream of jumping off the bridge to join him.

My brother died 4yrs ago. His ashes were scattered in SF Bay. Every year on the anniversary of his death I dream of jumping off the bridge to join him.

 
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My brother died 19 years ago and it still hurts. You know how badly it hurt to lose him my friend. Everyone you leave behind will hurt like that at your passing. Just pray for yourself everyday, and I will pray for you too.
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Your brother is at peace knowing that you come to the bridge to visit him, he would not want it any other way.
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dedicate your life to his memory! that will aid you in getting over your fatalistic fantasy.
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He wouldnt want that for you. Live for him!
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My brother died 8 years ago, my dad 2 years ago. I miss them terribly....you need to show your brother your love by continuing to go to the sight where his ashes were scattered and tell him you know he's watching over you, and that you will be strong for him, that you love him and that you will live life to the fullest for him. He is watching over you....every time it rains, it may be his tears for your sadness. Don't make him sad by jumping.....lifes too short, enjoy it while you are still here on earth, and when it IS your time to join your brother, he will be proud of you for being strong for him by waiting until it is truly your time to leave this life behind. Do something wild that you know your brother would have loved to have done before his time here on earth ended. You wont regret it. :)
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I feel your pain..we are part of a club that we didnt want to be in. My brother passed away 12yrs ago and with him a part of me has died too. Have Faith and believe that he is in a better place and one day you will be reunited. Live your life to the fullest so that he would be proud. Stay strong. Will kip you in my prayers...
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The poster before me is incredibly rude, Go away. In any case, I also lost my brother ( a year ago ) and understand the pain. I hope you find peace, as I too am still searching for it...
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I lost a younger brother (36) he died the way he vowed he would, exactly the way my father died, at home, on the couch, an alcoholic, with small children to support, left no life ins, we had to all contribute to bury him. My father was also 36.
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All of us who have lost loved ones grieve their losses, and I think that most of us never get over it completely (I still cry over my mother's death every day. Your brother's death was under especially tragic circumstances, and I can only imagine how difficult it is for you. However, I agree with one of the earlier posters, I am CERTAIN he would want you to be happy! To honor his memory, live the best life you can, and perhaps try to make a special contribution to a cause he held dear. God bless you!
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What is with these Death Wishes? People, you are going to die, anyway. What is your hurry??
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my sister's on the coast guard patrol for cleaning up the dead bodies under there. it's nasaty..
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My first real experience with death was when I was 23. My boyfriend died in a car accident. It was the worst thing in the world at the time. Then someone said something to me that I will never forget. They said, we cry because we are sad for ourselves, not the people we lost. They are happy. They are with the Lord in heaven. A few years later, I lost my grandmother who was my best friend, and I had a totally different outlook on her death. I understand I never lost a sibling, but I hope that thought helps you too. God bless.
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My sister killed herself ten years ago. I buried her in Georgia close to family. I go to SF every year and relax. I always think of my sister, but NEVER contimplate joining her unless I'm drunk or wasted. Stay sober.
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I highly recommend you watch the documentary film "The Bridge". Up until I watched it I had thoughts of wanted to throw myself off the bridge everyday. It helped. I watched it alone.
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Very good documentary. Saw it on IFC one night, creepy but informative. Sorry for your loss, but if you do jump and put your parents and friends through that shit again I will hunt you down in the afterlife and give you an apocalyptic purple-nurple for the rest of eternity.
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DON'T DO IT! Unless you want to be on 'The Bridge' Part II
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My father died when I was 17, an only child, not close to my mother. My father was my whole world. It took a few years before I stopped thinking about suicide to be with him because I felt so alone. Make your life mean the most that you can. Remind people you are his brother and how good a person he was. Talk to him when your not sure what to do and then listen. He'll be there for you. In your heart and mind he is part of you, always.
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youre brother is in a better place with the lord and he would like for you to be saing that you need to take care of youreself as well as family.
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