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        |  | I've constantly fantasized about running into my boyfriend who killed himself 15 years ago, as if his suicide was only a rumour. |   | 
    
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        |  | | I'm not sure how long ago this was written.  My first love committed suicide a few years ago and I'm having the hardest time believing that he is actually gone.  I keep thinking that I see him, and hoping that one day I really will.  If you ever want to chat- redneckjackylfreak@yahoo.com 
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