After getting in touch with my biological mom recently, I realize how much I really don't care about any of it. Her, or my adopted mom who left anyway.

I lost my best friend on Saturday,she lost all control of her back legs. I cried all day long. I have never grieved that much for a person. I miss her so much.

My ex wife's father recently died. It gave me an opportunity to hug her again.

I masturbate late at night while driving the zamboni at my work several nights a week

I hate what I've become but there's no-one to blame but myself. Now I'm in pain and miserable every day.