I need help!!!

I am miserable and I have no idea how to get better.

I can't do this without my rock :(

I hate my wife but I'm also the father of two young boys. They are my entire world. I can't bear the thought of leaving and not seeing them all the time.

I'm pregnt Agn. I can tell noone is really happy for us bcause they all know how much we struggle,they dont know that the love we have doesn't cost $ I'm Happy!