After my spouce died I masturbated at least 3X a day & my lunch hour. Fantasizing sex with everyone. I still want to believe in love,but my marriage was a farce

I've lost my purpose in life. Stay for smiles and music.

I was a child! You made me stay quiet! I will never get over it!

Everyday before work, I masturbate with my shower head. Even the days I have sex with my boyfriend!