I'm addicted to pain killers. I have a beautiful family and can't get the courage to confront them. I need help.

everyone thinks i'm a mack, i think i'm a lonley idiot

When I was 12, I had sex with a girl who was 2yrs older then me, several times. I'm not bi or gay. I experimented. No one knows, not even my hubby of 10 years.

People grow apart.
We've grown apart.
But this will always remain true.
Even if it's only one sided.

I moved away and didn't tell anybody. I just couldn't take it anymore. They all think I am on vacation and will be back.