I live in a dream world..Where I continue to pray for things that are extrodinary. Some how, I seem to see my dreans coming true. Others think Im foolish.

My older brother died 15 years ago. I think about him everyday, and wish that we could be men together, talk about marriage, and work, and drink beer etc.

Even tho i have a big family I feel so alone in this world.I feel as if no guy wants me.I fear that will die alone and be known as the crazy cat lady.

I wish I didn't need drugs or alcohol to be fun/funny and make myself feel good.

We flirted..we ignored..we flirted it was not meant to be we were both married, so why can't I get you out of my head?