I watched my dad die from alcoholism. I am a 24 year old alcoholic. There is 1 person who knows how bad it is and I think I am going to lose him because of it.

My shitty, sub par, boring, miserable, waste of a fucking life will probably never change. I've tried and tried. I can't be normal so fuck it all.

I wish that I died instead of my son. He would have had the opportunity to have a wonderful life. My life is fucked up beyond repair. I really do want to die.

I fantasize about being with a woman all of the time..my husband wouldn't go for it. Just once I want to make a woman scream my name.

Like Kurt and Courtney, our relationship was dysfunctional; but in a good way. I wish I knew where you were. I miss you. You will always be in my dreams. xoxo