I think my weight is the reason ppl come in n out of my life so quickly. I think I never will have friends or love. I feel so non existent all the time.

I wonder if you you ever looked in my window. Secretly I wished you would wake me one night after climbing through my window and make love to me.

I miss my husband. I hate him for leaving the way he did.

Mom & Dad, when I was little you didn't believe me when I told you he touched me. Now I don't know what to believe.

I really wanted a baby of my own, but couldn't. I convinced myself that I didn't want any. Now I can't stand kids. I hate everything about them...