I think my house is haunted! everyone thinks I'm crazy...maybe I am?

I just met my boyfriend 5 weeks ago. (We are in our 40s) We just moved in together. We haven't told any of our friends or family. They'd freak.

I hate it when my husband is too sick to help with the kids or the house, but as soon as his friends call, he's well enough to go out drinking and partying.

My little boy has died and I want to go with him. People tell me im strong but, im not.

My sex life is boring. I have tried to be more creative but he is too lazy. I can't cheat because I would feel too guilty.